Skip to main content

Checking in...

Image
By
my morning meditation view


This month I reached a birthday milestone. I am being granted the privilege of growing old.  I say that now because before, the number of years I am, have never felt very old to me.  Maybe it’s because I come from a large extended family where my twin sister and I were always the “babies” of the group.  We were the youngest of the kids.  Now the kids have kids.  And we have reached a number that makes me pause and evaluate where I am at in my life and if I am achieving what I hoped to achieve when I was younger.

Professionally, I am not fulfilled.  I have a job that I like at a company that I admire and have much respect for.  But something is still missing. I do not feel the value in my work as I once did.  I consider myself lucky and honestly very grateful.  I am in the position I am to have a career that so many would trade places with me for.  But I’m looking for something bigger.  Something that fills my heart and soul with passion, motivation and ultimately, I feel like I’m making a difference in people’s lives.  I’m not sure where my career is going yet (and I’ve learned to be ok with that) but as my mentor once said, I’m birthing something big here. 

The reason my work has become lackluster is because my heart grew.  I gave birth to a wonderful little boy almost 2.5 years ago.  Since then, my world was forever changed.  Things that mattered took a back seat, and anything I did in life was for him and our family. Becoming a mother was the biggest (and best) transformation I have ever experienced. The time I now spend away from him and my husband needs to be valuable and worthwhile.

This post didn’t have much meaning other than I needed to put my thoughts and feelings into words.  I hope to soon get back into the swing of blogging. I’m learning to be patient with myself for not giving 100% to any one area of my life right now.  However, I think as I begin to chip away at all of these things little by little, the truth of my purpose will begin to reveal itself.  Happiness along the way is what I strive for. Being present in the moment is what I aim for.  And being true to myself is what I hope for.  Until next time friends, be well.  

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Luck be a lady...

By
In case you haven't already heard, it's out with the old and in with the new at Mall of America.  Not that I didn't love Bloomingdales, but it's time Minnesota caught up with the rest of the world, and get some great retail stores in the supposed "Mall of America."  I am excited and downright giddy to announce that MOA will now have four new stores in replace of the Bloomingdales location:  Zara, Topshop, Madewell, and Tory Burch.  To say I am happier than a bird with a french fry, is an understatement.  My trips to MOA are going to dramatically increase to the point where I should look into a reserving a spot in the parking lot.  To prepare properly for this special occasion, I have been online window shopping again, and picked out some items I will hope to find in the new stores.  Here are some of my favorites. This Topshop dress will be perfect at weddings this summer. A Madewell llama necklace .  Need I say more? I li...
1 comment
Read more

Gifts for the Host

By
One of my favorite things about the holiday season is that there are a million reasons right now to throw a holiday party.  Here are some examples: cookie exchange party, holiday movie night party, ugly Christmas sweater party, or maybe a let's-drive-around-the-neighborhood-and-look-at-lights-party (if you drink the spiked egg nog before driving around, consider this a walking party).  Whatever the reason, holiday parties are a wonderful time to get together with friends.  Hosting is not an easy job, but it makes it more enjoyable when guests show up with a nice gift.  Here are some great hosting gifts under $50 to give this holiday season. A new way to keep white wine chilled A great game for the long winter nights in by the fire These throws are super soft and cozy Homemade popcorn is the best. Try this recipe with it! This reminds me of a martini shaker I would see in a James Bond film.
Post a Comment
Read more

Happy 4th of July!

By
Fireworks over the ocean at Key Biscayne Let's take a mini break from talking about my trip to discuss the current holiday that is upon us, the 4th of July!  Just like most Americans, I love the birthday of America and am excited to celebrate with everyone!  We are heading up to the cabin tonight for a patriotic boat parade and some fireworks over the lake. I have been lucky to experience this holiday in a variety of places and there are always family, friends, food, and perhaps a cocktail with Uncle Sam (just to clarify I mean the father of America, I don't have an actual Uncle Sam). Here are a couple of links for your 4th of July viewing pleasure!  Hope you all have a fun holiday planned!  If not, take Katy Perry's Firework advice, "you just got to ignite the light, and let it shine!"  Happy Birthday America! I'm hoping to try this recipe tomorrow while we grill our steaks Love this Saved by the Bell episode of the 4th of July One year...
Post a Comment
Read more