Skip to main content

Checking in...

Image
By
my morning meditation view


This month I reached a birthday milestone. I am being granted the privilege of growing old.  I say that now because before, the number of years I am, have never felt very old to me.  Maybe it’s because I come from a large extended family where my twin sister and I were always the “babies” of the group.  We were the youngest of the kids.  Now the kids have kids.  And we have reached a number that makes me pause and evaluate where I am at in my life and if I am achieving what I hoped to achieve when I was younger.

Professionally, I am not fulfilled.  I have a job that I like at a company that I admire and have much respect for.  But something is still missing. I do not feel the value in my work as I once did.  I consider myself lucky and honestly very grateful.  I am in the position I am to have a career that so many would trade places with me for.  But I’m looking for something bigger.  Something that fills my heart and soul with passion, motivation and ultimately, I feel like I’m making a difference in people’s lives.  I’m not sure where my career is going yet (and I’ve learned to be ok with that) but as my mentor once said, I’m birthing something big here. 

The reason my work has become lackluster is because my heart grew.  I gave birth to a wonderful little boy almost 2.5 years ago.  Since then, my world was forever changed.  Things that mattered took a back seat, and anything I did in life was for him and our family. Becoming a mother was the biggest (and best) transformation I have ever experienced. The time I now spend away from him and my husband needs to be valuable and worthwhile.

This post didn’t have much meaning other than I needed to put my thoughts and feelings into words.  I hope to soon get back into the swing of blogging. I’m learning to be patient with myself for not giving 100% to any one area of my life right now.  However, I think as I begin to chip away at all of these things little by little, the truth of my purpose will begin to reveal itself.  Happiness along the way is what I strive for. Being present in the moment is what I aim for.  And being true to myself is what I hope for.  Until next time friends, be well.  

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Seasonal Changes

By
As most of the country begins their slow decent into the autumn season, Minnesota tends to jump in full force the moment we have one day less than 70 degrees. The leaves are turning beautiful colors of orange, yellow and red, and the chilly weather is making it tough to leave my house in the morning without a jacket and scarf. I welcome the change of seasons and have already made updates to my wardrobe and living spaces. Here are some quick tips on how you can make some easy changes to embrace the autumn season. 1.  Stock up on baking items.  Do an inventory of your spices, baking ingredients, and tools to see what you need. I just picked up some new cookie sheets from Kitchen Window as my old ones needed to be donated. Baking is much more fun when I know that I already have everything I need, and then I can make my pumpkin bread during the week. 2.  Switch your bedding.  This is something that a friend of mine showed me, and I am determined to do it this year. Current
Post a Comment
Read more

Luck be a lady...

By
In case you haven't already heard, it's out with the old and in with the new at Mall of America.  Not that I didn't love Bloomingdales, but it's time Minnesota caught up with the rest of the world, and get some great retail stores in the supposed "Mall of America."  I am excited and downright giddy to announce that MOA will now have four new stores in replace of the Bloomingdales location:  Zara, Topshop, Madewell, and Tory Burch.  To say I am happier than a bird with a french fry, is an understatement.  My trips to MOA are going to dramatically increase to the point where I should look into a reserving a spot in the parking lot.  To prepare properly for this special occasion, I have been online window shopping again, and picked out some items I will hope to find in the new stores.  Here are some of my favorites. This Topshop dress will be perfect at weddings this summer. A Madewell llama necklace .  Need I say more? I like the idea of a T
1 comment
Read more

White Denim

By
Francesca's Collection  White Denim Pants , Mossimo Supply Co Denim Shirt, Toms Shoes Like many creative people, I tend to go through color phases.  I like to compare myself to Jackson Pollock when he was going through his "Blue" phase.  Currently, I am having a White Moment (notice how I capitalized it to make it a proper noun).  My White Moment consist of buying clothes, accessories, and decor in shades of white. Lucky we don't have any pets, but I do live with an artist, so sometimes this can be tricky.  During a shopping excursion where I was on a hunt for white denim, I came across this pair at Francesca's Collection .   They suited my 5'3 frame well, and had the right amount of stretch for comfort.  Paired with a classic blue denim top, the combination was perfect for a weeknight evening stroll.
2 comments
Read more