Lady Nine

my morning meditation view This month I reached a birthday milestone. I am being granted the privilege of growing old.  I say that now because before, the number of years I am, have never felt very old to me.  Maybe it’s because I come from a large extended family where my twin sister and I were always the “babies” of the group.  We were the youngest of the kids.  Now the kids have kids.  And we have reached a number that makes me pause and evaluate where I am at in my life and if I am achieving what I hoped to achieve when I was younger. Professionally, I am not fulfilled.   I have a job that I like at a company that I admire and have much respect for.   But something is still missing. I do not feel the value in my work as I once did.   I consider myself lucky and honestly very grateful.   I am in the position I am to have a career that so many would trade places with me for.   But I’m looking for something bigger.   Something that fills my heart and soul w